Wednesday, 24 August 2016

Day 812 - Making Assumptions - Part 2





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make assumptions about what another is thinking in relation to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my own decisions on how to experience myself because of assumptions that I have made about others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief within and as me that another is experiencing themselves based on my own assumptions of how I would actually react/experience myself if I was in their shoes.

Assume -

assume
əˈsjuːm/Submit
verb

1.
suppose to be the case, without proof.
"topics which assume detailed knowledge of local events"
synonyms:presume, suppose, take it, take for granted, take as read, take it as given, presuppose, conjecture, surmise, conclude, come to the conclusion, deduce, infer, draw the inference, reckon, reason, guess, imagine, think, fancy, suspect, expect, accept, believe, be of the opinion, understand, be given to understand, gather, glean; More

2.
take or begin to have (power or responsibility).

"he assumed full responsibility for all organizational work"

synonyms:accept, shoulder, bear, undertake, take on, take up, take on oneself, manage, handle, deal with, get to grips with, turn one's hand to
"the children are to assume as much responsibility as possible"

I see the word assume as a negative and positive word, based on/ in which context I am using it.

Ass u me
Assoomme


I forgive myself that I haven't seen/realised and understood how assuming a position, to stand and be clear within and as myself when I communicate with others, by not allowing reactions to emotions and feelings to cloud my judgement, will allow me to have the time and space that I need, and within this I will not make assumptions, about how others will react/communicate to and towards me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief within and as me that the outcome will often be negative, and not what I want to hear, based on assumptions that I have made about myself, even at a subtle sub conscious level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into an anxiety/fear reaction because of assumptions that I have made, because of how I would react to a situation, and then within this I forgive myself that I haven't seen/realised and understood how I am in fact restricting myself within and as my own expression, because I am busy second guessing others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a 'downer' on myself, where I will assume the worst in any situation, and accept this as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed words to penetrate my being, to the point I now live it out in the physical, as a holding back, and standing down, and often choosing my words very carefully to suit the situation, as I have seen it in my minds eye.

When and as I see/experience myself in back chat with myself about how others are likely to react/communicate.  I stop and I breathe, and I slow myself down, and I commit myself to remind myself that I am going into assumptions based on my own interperatation of things, and that in no way do I know what the other is thinking, or how they will react in that moment.

I commit myself  live the word assume as a word that assists me to see what is the best for me in each moment, as in assuming the best position for me, and one that is not steeped in fear and paranoia.